I saw a polaroid moment today where I got an intense surge of energy.
I was driving to work early in the morning and I looked to my left and saw the sun creeping over the hoprizon and it shined on the cyrus clouds that hover beneath the atmosphere. At the same time the lake was steaming after the cold air it spent the night with. It was the start of something beautiful and I fealt revived, I wish i had a polaroid for moments like these. Absolutely beautiful and uncomprehendable, even for the visioners eyes of the mind. I love moments like these, for they bring much joy.

"If sympathy were physical, Id fill you chalice with mirth." ~One of my stupid quotes.

Im enjoying watching the remaining dew say its last goodbyes to the lush green earth before it fills the sky with a heavenly cloud.
Nomadic crickets chirp in sync,
creating a beautiful rhythm ,
making my heart just sink.
Thats the opposite feeling i get when you turn me down,
you stop my rhythm,
make me frown.
Its as if i need you,
you are my drug,
physically addictive,
i think thats calld love.
Looking at a forest,
your the tallest, greenest tree.
So strong and bold, you set my mind so free.
Free from the captivity it usually resides,
up up and away, no more disguise.
With you I'm me,
like a winged nuthatch,
flying free.
I know theres many fish in the see, I just wish you could be with me.

I had a dream last night about an insect that looked like an ear of corn. It had a spinner and was doing these crazy psychadelic patters with its silk. It was moving it around in the air and my attention was grabbed. then dreamed of me waking up and asking if it really happened. I dreamt of dreaming, and it was very insane. The power of the mind is amazing, especially in moments such as those.

I love life and I love all these little games in it, I want to express myself more and not be so up tight about the way i look.

Peace out.

Remember, "you are the eyes of the world." ~GD

Hello,

I bought a digital voise recorder yesterday and thought it would be a
good idea to record some of my thoughts/problems and then play then and
see how it would work. I shall say, i was amazed at how differently i
tackled the problems after hearing them, they were coming through
another passage that my defense was not ready for. I could handle them
with much more reason then before, and in the long run, this recorder
has had substantial benefeits.



"walk through splintered sunlight, inch your way through dead dreams to another land...

maybe your tired and broken, your tongue is twisted with words half spoken and thoughts unclear..." ~Grateful Dead



I meditated last night for like 30 minutes, and when i opened my eyes
back up I was seeing very differently, patters were forming on my
ceiling and I began to tell stories about what i saw and recorded them
all...VERY trippy i must add. My main concern was to overcome this sort
of social anxiety i have been feeling all my life, today at work I was
much more open and understanding them before. I initiated conversations
and cracked jokes as if it were nothing. I am degreasing this slime
that I bear and soon will be "slime" free... when that day comes,
Its gunna be fuckin sweet.



ps - did I mention that i love life!! Everyone looks at the same sky, and everyone walks on the same earth.

Hello, Today I am extremely confused. No matter how hard I try to do things I want, I get pulled away by an outer force, a force I cannot identify or see. It is extremely powerful and I can not find its weakness. I cant wait till I go back to school and talk to counselors. This life is short and im not doing things I want too, and I dont know why. Very frustrating, I hope I can exape one of these days.

Imagine yourself as an ear of corn and each kernel is an eye. Imagine what image your mind would make if you were to take it visual signals in 360 degrees. One of those intresting thoughts that popped in my head.

I feel really good today, I finally get a night off to RELAX, something I need real bad right now.
I was working to day and I saw this guy who had a tee shirt that said, " Be the change that you want to see". ~Ghandi I enjoyed this lots as it brought a chilling smile to my face.

"Life is but a funny dream, and someday Ill share that dream with you" ~ Phish

Cant wait till I find that 'someone'

And I look into her eyes and my frozen heart begins to thaw
And burns, 'til layer after layer melts away into a pool
A sky blue mirror of her eyes

And my soul is made of marble but in her gaze I crumble into dust
And drift away on the wind
The wind from beyond the mountain
The wind from beyond the mountain

~Phish